Kick Kick Kick

Last night we experienced a momentous event, the baby kicked! I was reading in bed while Ben was away at Scouts. I paused and set the book down to consider some of the names on our list and think about a name that had just shown up in the book I'm reading. Then I felt it, a little nudge pushing towards the outside. I set the book down and paid attention. I then felt a BIG one, must have been with both feet, because it was unmistakable. It was it if he/she was saying, "You felt that right. I'm here!"

I fell asleep after the kicking stopped, and when Ben returned home he woke me up. I told him what had happened, but I wasn't sure if he would be able to feel anything from the outside until the baby gets bigger. As we were lying in bed, the kicking started back up again. I grabbed his hand and placed it on the spot where most of the kicking was taking place, and sure enough, he could tell the baby was kicking up a storm. 

I was starting to get discouraged that I hadn't felt anything yet, but I also knew that I wasn't really pausing enough to feel such subtle movements. Most days I'm walking from class to class, and in class I try not to get distracted and listen to the professor. There are not a lot of times where it's not still and quiet enough to feel anything going on inside. 

On another note, Ben and I have decided what I'll be doing in the meantime before the baby arrives. I've been reading this book, and I like what the author has to say about self-education. 

 

So we've decided that I wont be returning to school in April, and I'm very excited about it. I'm taking off on a self-education journey. I was thinking about some of my favorite historical figures and philosophers and realized that many of them did not attend schools and universities. Instead, they read books and pondered nature. I asked Ben what he thought of this, "Do you think that because people like Henry David Thoreau were educated in nature and in the home, that they were better able to be taught by the Spirit? Nature is created by God, as opposed to a college building which was built by man, and men teach their own philosophies in it. So does it make sense that our historical figures would be better able to feel the influence of the Spirit in their self-education?" 

We've decided that the best thing for me right now, is to embark on this self-education. I can also have more flexible time to get ready for the baby and look for an apartment for us. I'm excited for this change to take place. I can sit down and read Plato without feeling rushed to finished in before final exams come, and really take my time to digest what I'm reading, instead of just memorizing facts for a test.