We lost a member of the Parmenter family today. Jeffrey Dillon Parmenter was born 6lbs. 10oz. and 20 inches long to Joshua and Michelle. Sadly, he was with them for only a little while. His umbilical cord was coming out first and being pinched by his head. An emergency c-section was done, but he had already passed.
I've experienced a total mix of emotions today. I mostly feel for Michelle and the loss of her little boy. I know as much as I try to imagine, I could never come close to knowing what it feels like to lose a child. I am sad that while they have struggled to have this child grow and develop from the very beginning, I had one of the easiest pregnancies known to man and now have a healthy boy. I wish James could have his cousin to grow and play with. I know that Jeffrey was a such a perfect spirit that all he needed was this short experience with a body so he could quickly return to Heavenly Father.
I was comforted today by my own little James. Just as I had gotten off the phone with Ben this morning and was feeding James, he looked up at me through my tears and gave me the most reassuring smile. He never smiles unless prompted by someone talking and smiling to him. He did this all on his own. I feel that he knew what was happening. He understands the Plan of Happiness better than I do. I feel that the veil is still very thin for James and he can feel the influence of the Spirit in a way I don't know.
This song as been in my head throughout today. I know now that Jeffrey is one of those angels who beckon us to live in such a way that we too can return to our Heavenly Father, and to our family.
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