My bus crash is finally starting to sink in. I was too busy in Ukraine to really think about it, but the impact of it is hitting me full force now. I'm fine, but I'm wondering how his family is doing, what new information is there on the accident? I may never know some of these things. It has been confirmed that it was a suicide and not just a careless, but fatal, driving mistake.
I miss the friendships I developed with some of the interpreters. If there's one thing I hate about foreign exchanges, its that the chances of you seeing that person again are so small. You spend all this time with a person getting to know them and becoming friends, and then that's the end of it. You can keep contact, but it's never really the same. I experienced that with Nate when he moved to North Carolina two weeks into our junior year, and Karo when she went back home to Germany. I told myself we were going to use IM and email and always be friends the way we had when they lived here but time passes and you grow apart. Other friendships take the place of the friends you moved away from.
I'm determined to go back and see them again. Peggy Giles said something about that to be when we were driving to a location. I hadn't even realized I'd said it. She turns to me and says, "You know what I just heard you say? 'When I come back." And you know what? I bet you will." I will make sure of it.
I feel the same way about friendships that pass away. It brakes my heart that I'll never be able to recover what I had with my high school friends and college roommates. We move on, have separate lives and maintain less and less contact. For some reason it always seems harder for me to let go than others.
ReplyDeleteHow do you know it was a suicide? It's really too bad.
Hez,
ReplyDeleteHe left a note, and he stopped at a coffee shop and mentioned that it was his last coffee in his life.